As you know I’ve been struggling with things for quite a while. I had been doing really well at getting healthy before I started the “program”. I dropped a pants size, I felt better, & I didn’t over think it. However now… I’m up in not just my weight, my pants size, but also with my health screening numbers (not in a good way). I’m bumming out because of this.
Today was the last straw. I thought my pants were fitting better. I’ve been faithfully going to the gym and only missed one session because I was home sick with a huge headache. However none of my dress pants fit me… still. So I had to go shopping for new pants. Yeah that was NOT fun. First stop K-mart. Everything there that was my size looked like something my grandmother wore in the 80s that was from the 60s. I go over to JCP and find a pair for $25 that might work. I don’t have time to try them on so I buy them and run down the mall to see what other stores there are still there. Crapy stores. From there I go over to Goodwill and find only a handful of pants in my size to start with and less than half are dressy. Those were old and junky. Then I go to Kohls… still nothing. That’s when I figured I’d stop shopping and drove home crying.
I wasn’t this discouraged when I wrote about My Bra Fight.
I’m frustrated. I’m discouraged.